Happy Halloween Everyone!

Hope everyone has fun tonight doing whatever your plans are! I'll be handing out candy to the little one's with my in-laws. I did my fun partying this past weekend with my sister's in-laws. My husband and I dressed up as Lucille Ball and Ricky Ricardo.  It was so much fun!
Some of the goodies I brought for them to enjoy were pumpkin deviled eggs and pumpkin spice cookies.  The deviled eggs are just a basic recipe with food coloring added. Then I just sprinkled chives for the stem and sweet paprika.
Deviled eggs
•18 eggs
•2 tbsp of mayo (adjust to amount of eggs )
•2 tbsp of mustard
•sprinkle of sweet paprika
•chives
Boil the eggs for 30 minutes. Pour out hot water and run cool water over the eggs. This is just to cool them enough too handle.  I found it better to slide the shell off when they are still warm.
Cut in half and scoop out yolk.  Place in separate bowl. Now get another bowl and place about 4 cups of water, one cup of vinegar and food coloring. Let set for as long as you would like the orange.
Mix the mayo, mustard and food coloring together.  Now take the eggs and scoop the mixture into them. Sprinkle chives and paprika. Enjoy!
Pumpkin spice cookies
• 2 1/4 cup flour
• 2/3 powered sugar
• 1/3 sugar
• 1 tsp. baking powder
• 1/4 tsp. salt
• 1 tbsp. vanilla
• 2 tbsp. pumpkin spice
• 1 1/4 cup butter
Place all the dry ingredients together.  Cut the butter into the dry ingredients and then add the vanilla. Now split the dough in half. Place in two separate bowls.  Make one orange and the other black. You can do whatever color you'd like.  Roll each onto it own wax paper and lay in the freezer for 30 minutes. 
Take out both pieces and lay on top of each other. Roll the dough. If you'd like roll in orange sprinkles like I did.  Place back in for 15 minutes.  Preheat oven to 350°. 
Cut the cookies into slices and place on parchement lined pans. Bake for 15 minutes and take out. Let cool for 10 minutes.  Enjoy!
Have a Spooktacular Halloween Everyone!!!

Pumpkins!!!!

Well I went pumpkin hunting at the beginning of the month. I have to say that going at the beginning is way better opposed to the end. I just didn't carve my pumpkins until this week and they are still kicking. I have learned to awesome ways to keep them alive for as long as you possibly can(1-2 weeks). One is a diluted bleach spray. It works well and it keeps the bacteria from coming back. Another is Vaseline. I've only done this one this year and it is working wonders ( thank you Martha Stewart!).  I cut my pumpkin on Saturday and it looks still fresh today! I got three pumpkins this year, a white and two orange. I painted one to look like the balloons and house from "Up"! The bigger pumpkin I carved with my mom and did like "Pixar's ,La Luna". I haven't decided what to do with the white one yet.

 

Capture Your Grief 2012

Here I am playing catch up with this as well. I want to really do this because I do believe it's helping in some ways. I apologize again if this is not your cup of tea. I'm doing this for myself or anyone else that has jumped onto this unhappy train ride. It's one that you really wish you could get off at anytime, but God has a different plan and you just have to hold on tight. That's how I feel right now at this moment. I find myself looking at my some what empty home (I say that because my husband and loving pets live here. :) ) and wishing it were different. Almost like nothing I do will make a difference or matter until we get what we want. Well enough ranting, here's what I missed.

On day 19 it was what kind of projects have you worked on since your losses. I've only done little projects such as the prayer flag, passing out ribbons to show awareness and making clay figures for their memorial. I know in my heart I want to do more. When I see how excited people get because you care so much about them, that is what makes me happy at this moment and time.

For day 20 we are suppose to share a charity that has touched us on this journey. I'm going to be honest I've found a ton of good websites to go on and they have all touched me in some way, shape or form. I would have to say that Carly Marie's Project Heal is at the top of the list. It was the first one that I came across that I keep going back to and refer anyone who has lost a loved one to. You will meet lots of wonderful people and feel more at home. Now I know this is about pregnancy or infant loss but I want to share this site anyway because I know there are people out there that have heard those horrible words " You won't be able to have children". I came across this wonderful site where this amazing young lady helps parents adopt by selling ornaments, Just a Small Town Girl. 

On day 21 we are supposed to share a altar/sacred space. Our's is in the dining room, it's small but I feel like  they are still apart of us with that space there.

Day 22 was who took care of me. Obviously because I've only experienced early miscarriages it was mostly up to my, but along side me all the way was my husband. Can't say I was the best patient at times, but I'm thankful that he understood. :)

Those are chocolate cigars. :) 

Day 23 is their names or photos.

On day 24 we have to share about their siblings or ours. Since of course we have no living children I will share about my husband's and my siblings. My sister's were at first not sure what to say. It didn't help that a couple week's later one of them announced they were pregnant. I felt like when she approached me I was being told bad news. So for a while I felt I had to be stronger and let a lot of things just roll off my shoulders.  I'm glad now that they are starting to come around and listen a little more. My husband has a brother and sister. I don't remember what his brother's reaction was, but his sister asked me " Why does this keep happening " She was concerned and I think crushed. 

 

Finally day 25 we are supposed to share what we got as a blessing/baby shower gift. Of course we have never made it that far, but for the first lost I had bought white slippers and "Twas The Night Before Christmas".

 

Thank you everyone for listening! Have a wonderful day!

Hello Everyone!

I know it's nearing the end of the week and as usual that's when I like/get the chance to make an appearance on here. You would think with a part time schedule it would leave room for lot's to do, but it sure doesn't feel that way sometimes. I think the holidays are really starting to kick my butt already, on top of all the birthdays and extras I like to do in between.

I recently did over 50+ donuts for a high school band my husband helps out. It always stresses me out at first because I expect perfection in myself and want to show that I care in whatever I am doing. This was my first big project after all, but in the end the kids loved them and that was enough for my. Especially when I got to see them perform later that day and they found out that they are going to State Competitions!!! :)

Then for practically a month now I've been planning a way to send my niece the perfect care package to celebrate here first birthday since we cannot be there. I would have to say the all my hard work paid off and it really made my day as well as my sister's. In her care package was a Yo Gabba Gabba (Foofa) onesie, matching pink tutu and headband, kid drumsticks, Yo Gabba Gabba paper dolls, Yo Gabba Gabba handmade slippers and a "Just add Ice Cream" kit. All of these things are her favorites and it sound like she spent most of the day caring everything around and that melts my heart. :) 

To do the slippers is not too hard. I'm a beginner and I made it work for me! :) Here is the website that I got the template and further instructions from Pink Slipper Project.

Donuts

Are you ready for this? Here is the best and easiest way to make donuts without breaking the bank! Just get a roll of the Pillsbury biscuit's and cut holes on the middle. I used my cookie cutter, but you can use a bottle cap.You will now have donuts and donut holes. Heat some oil in a pot. You will know it's ready when you sprinkle a little water and it pops. Now place them in a little at a time. It takes about 10-20 seconds each side. Place on paper towel lined pan. Now you can decorate to you hearts content. I'm thinking about a glaze, green to be specific because I'm going to be doing these for the high school band my husband helps!

October 13th!

So October 13th was my birthday! I know it's too soon to say, but I am already feeling pretty optimistic about this year. It feels different, I can't describe how, but I do know it feels different some how.   I made my own cake and I know that sounds weird, but that's just how I roll. I went to a band competition with my husband and then I got to do whatever  I wanted. It was basically just a chill day of food, shopping and playing video games. I think my husband was surprised when I requested we play video games. :) I think one of the best parts of the day was when I found this awesome candy store, It Sugar. I found astronaut ice cream and finally got to try it! It is the best!                                     

Capture Your Grief 2012

I've kind of been busy lately and therefore it has kept me from here, I apologize for my absence.

On the 11th day we were suppose to share who has been of great support. I would have to say that my husband were the best support to each other. I really don't think that we would be where we are now without each other. We also had family and co-workers who of great help. I know that I said that my family wasn't while my sister was pregnant, but I think that they have grown to understand that all we need is their support. Especially since I talk to my mom and let her know what to say or do if she wants to be of any assistance to us. On the 15th of October of this year I was totally ecstatic to see all the support I was getting, especially from work.  It was such an uplifting feeling. :)

For the 12th we had to share scents that remind us of our baby. I couldn't really think of anything for this one. I think I would have been more effected by this one if I had been farther along, but I wasn't  I do remember that my husband could't go down the baby isle for a while cause of the pain it caused and even now since he works in a warehouse that distributes those kinds of products he get's kind of upset when he has to box them, but he is growing each day.

On the 13th it was all about signs. I chose hummingbird for our sign. I'm pretty sure we've had tons of signs like butterflies that flutter really close by or clouds that resemble things, but this one I thought would be the best. My husband and I like to take walks at a trail near our home and there seem to be a lot of hummingbirds there when we are there. While there we've had a couple flutter in front of us for a good amount of time.  They didn't want to move out of the way either, I was kind of afraid if I kept walking I'd get poked. :) Well now that I was thinking about it, I've had another possible sign on the same trail. Sometimes while on this trail we'd be coming back when it's dark. Well one night I looked up and there was a shooting star, but no ordinary star. This one went on for a good 30 to 60 seconds.

Day 14 was about what community have you taken part in with this. I wish there were more groups where I was at to do the things I do now where I live but that's now the case. The community that I've been mostly involved with is Carly Marie's Project Heal. I guess I could say I've also done things with the March Of Dimes. Also whenever I notice a new community online I like to jump on board to make new friends and such.



For day 15 it was the wave of light all across the world. My loving husband lit the candles for my because I was at work, but seeing all the candle being lit across the world was amazing and so beautiful! I did the three for my babies and I had the other ones for all the babies across the world! <3 I put a pink and blue candle in my ice cream so I felt like I was still taking part. :)

Day 16 was about releases of any sort. I think it would be could to release butterflies one day, but for now we've only done balloons. 

On the 17th it was all about what we did to celebrate their anniversary/birthday/due date. For Libby's birthday I wanted to make a cake, but like always time runs out and so we bought one. I made the topper though, which is "The Hungry Caterpillar". 

Finally today is a family portrait. Because there is only Carlos and I there really isn't too many family photos of that sort. So I made one up, which I think came out pretty good. 

Again thank you everyone for listening to me talk about this. <3